a bitter end. - Bittersweet

I found this picture from 2005
If I remember, I used to be so shy
I used to be so careless when I was young
I remember being so depressed when you were gone

Didn't have a voice to speak with
Didn't have an ear that I could reside
All the fears I kept within
All I wanted was to divide

I let things get to me
Stood there like I was a stone
A coward I refuse to be
That's not how I'll raise my son
And I learned from my mistakes
'Cause they robbed me of my soul
And I know it's not too late
Too late

Bittersweet is this feeling inside
I never know my blessings till they die
I can't waste my life holding back
Every time I'm losing sight
Bittersweet is my life

Bittersweet is life
I can't believe it's past

And I know it's not too late

Broken from the start
Ever since that, I gave you my heart
Broken from the start
Ever since that, I gave you my heart
Broken from the start
Ever since that, I gave you my heart
Broken from the start
Ever since that, I gave you my heart

And I only blame myself, you know
'Cause I remember that first time that we talked
I remember the first time that we walked together
Only to find the reasons
The truth, that our actions didn't mean anything
That our love didn't mean anything
That our words didn't mean anything
'Cause you and I were selfish
Only wanted to play a game
But the game was better

Yeah, what if I want to stick by your side
Would it be selfish?
What if I want to stick by your side
Would it be hopeless?

Bittersweet is this feeling inside
I never know my blessing till they die
I can't waste my life holding back
Every time, I'm losing sight
Bittersweet is this feeling inside

Bittersweet is this feeling inside
I never know my blessings till they die
I can't waste my life holding back
Every time I'm losing sight
Bittersweet is my life

My life
Didn't have a voice to speak with
My life
All the fears I kept within
My life
Didn't have a voice to speak with
My life
All the fears I kept within
All I wanted was to divide